I am a very independent person. Oh and strong willed too. But I have to say that marriage has been good to me. I have learned to lean on and trust Monte. In turn it has effected my spiritual relationship in the same ways. I know I still have a long way to go, but looking back on the last nine years at least I have made progress!
Yesterday was heart breaking. It was not the news we were expecting and we were both very disappointed. I don't think you can mentally prepare for the road blocks in adoption. But it is the way you handle them that is important. It was so hard waiting 10 weeks at the top of the list for a referral. It was hard seeing others get court dates and us having to wait two more weeks for the news. It was hard not passing court the first time. It was hard getting the call that said that we did need a new court date and we had to wait. It is hard knowing that the other families that received a referral on the same day as us leave next week to get their children.
This verse kept coming to mind last night.
"The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." Deuteronomy 31:8
I find so much comfort in this verse. He knows how much we want our girls home. I may not understand all the reasons why we keep getting delayed, but I need to be content. I need to put my independence aside and lean on God. Truly lean on him!
Our pastor preached on faith last week and it really spoke to me. One thing he said was, Believe God. Do not just believe in God.
10 comments:
Praying for you Tisha! Those sweet girls will be in your arms before you know it.
Hugs to you Tisha! Praying that the 24th is here before you know it and that you are traveling to bring home your girls even faster!!!
Praying your court date comes fast and you'll be on your way in no time.
Bless you Tisha! I'm praying for you, Monte and the boys!! I know if you trust in the Lord you will not be disapointed, so you are doing the right thing. I also know sometimes we wish He would choose to put spirtual "hair" on our chest in other ways! Bless you!
Kim
That's awesome, Tisha! Somewhere I saw a quote that said "Adoption isn't charity, it's spiritual warfare". You are doing exactly what God wants you to do in this hard time - leaning on Him and trusting Him. He will not let this delay go to waste and will grow you and strengthen you through it. That's only going to make you a better mom for these precious girls that you will be bringing home very soon. I'm still praying for you!
I'm so sorry- I know what that awful wait feels like. You're right to keep your mind and heart focused on the Lord's promises, and to trust in His timing. Hang in there!!
Powerful! I love that verse!!! It is so hard, but wow when God is speaking to you..know there are blessings to follow. Just know we are praying for your next court date!!!!
Having had several failed court dates myself, I can totally relate to all of the emotions you are experiencing. While it is hard to walk through in the present, in just a couple of months it will all be over. Keep clinging to God's promises :)
I have been there...not passing court and watching others travel without me, to hold their children. It is sooo hard. BUT I learned thru 2 adoptions ;) to have faith, as I know you do , that GOD's timing is PERFECT!! I cant wait unitl you have your 2 sweet little baby girls in your arms :)
Beautiful words about trusting in His timing. Think of the families in other difficult situations that you may helping. Thank you for sharing.
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