I don't want to miss anything!

Today in Indiana the spring rains are coming down. I thought it was a perfect day to grab a blanket, cuddle on the coach with my three sons and watch are favorite movie. Our favorite is any of our many home videos. I find it is a wonderful way to connect with the boys. I often tell them about what they were like when they were little and the cute things they did, but this is a good way for them to see themselves in "real life". I treasure these little tapes. I treasure the time that I have with my children.

I know having them so close to together made me miss so much of the little stuff. I was too focused on just surviving and unable to take it all in. I wish I was able to go back and relive it. I would do a lot of things different. But I think if I were to ask any mom, no matter their circumstances, they would all say the same. Mom's tend to be filled with guilt by nature. We are not perfect by any means, but I know with Mother's Day on Sunday, I plan on taking it all in.

Even the little things...

I don't want to miss the day when I realized their fat fingers turned into big kid hands.
I don't want to miss kissing their boo boos.
I don't want to miss the look on their face when they accomplished something big.
I don't want to miss tucking them in because they asked me too.
I don't want to miss reading that book... just one more time.
I don't want to miss cuddling on the coach and talking.
I don't want to miss a "Mommy, I love you."
I don't want to miss anything. I want to stop thinking that surviving is more important and when I am surviving that means getting a load of laundry done, unloading the dishwasher or vacuuming.
I don't want to miss anything.
Happy Mother's Day.