This adoption "ride" is more intense than any roller coaster I have ever been on. For those of you who don't know me well, I LIVE for roller coasters. I would love to be one of those people who travel the world to try out the newest and best roller coaster.
But I must say, if I am not able to travel the world in search of the next best ride, that is ok because right now I am living it day by day in my own home.
Adoption is a crazy emotional experience. Yesterday we received an email that gave us the impression that there was a strong possibility that we would receive our referral today or tomorrow. Well, the information the person was given ended up not being 100% accurate. We are back to the unknown again.
It is a very hard place to be at. It will be 5 weeks on Thursday that we have been at the #1 spot for different sibling combinations. I will be honest and tell you all, it is tiring.
The upside is that I am trying so hard to rely on the Lord. He knows who are children are. He knows their gender and how old they are. He knows their background and why they are or will become orphans. I know the time will come, but my humanness wants it now, just like I want everything.
Another upside is that I have an amazing bunch of family and friends. I know lots of people are praying for us and our children. I can't even express how much that warms my heart. So, thank you!
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I can echo your feelings. Somedays I feel so hopeful and have peace in God's perfect plan. Then...other days I feel like I am going crazy. What do you mean Erin's info was not 100% correct? I was still hopeful for a call later this week.
I can relate this week (my post last night)! It is a rollercoaster and we need to continue to trust and believe that the Lord is driving!
Blessings,
Jennifer
www.needhamfamily5.blogspot.com
I understand. We were #1 for 5 weeks on the girls' list. It will happen for you...but I know the wait can be excruciating.
Will pray for you,
Sarah
I RUN from roller coasters - and thought we dodged the adoption roller coaster when we picked our children from the waiting child list - (ok God picked them)
NOPE! There's always a roller coaster in adoption - and it does get tiring! Hang in there - Lean ON HIM!
hugs! It really happens FAST! - when your in the next phase.
You know my thoughts...
As always... praying for ya!
This is not time wasted or even just waiting. God is working out all of the details perfectly to bring your children home. You'll look back at this roller coaster and see how each twist and turn was God's doing.
Tomorrow is pray/fast Wednesday and just know you'll be prayed for every time my stomach grumbles :)
Hi I am new to your blog and actually found it from the AGCI yahoo group I just joined the other day...My husband and I are in the process of adopting from Ethiopia. We adopted our daughter the end of 2007 from Guatemala.
I just wanted to send you a note of encouragement. Adoption is a very undpredictable journey, but know this... the waiting is very short lived compared to the YEARS you will have with your children. I know easier said then done, but having been through it once I know it is true! God's blessings on your journey.
We have two blogs, our family blog and our adoption blog.
Carrie
I hadn't really updated since the Brock's lost theirs as well so that is all I know of. But I think there has only been ONE girl referral since Kristi's original referral of feb 10! ONE! That is just crazy slow.
praying for you!!!!!!
The wait is the worst part of the adoption process. You are almost done- hang in there :) Praying for the kiddos you have now and the ones that will soon join you :)
Girl..I feel your pain...thanks for your email....yes, this is extremely hard now...I'm trying to stay focused on WHY we're doing this in the first place but the let down of losing our baby is beyond anything I ever expected..I waited soooo long for her...almost 7 months and then to lose it is awful....I'm praying we both hear something soon...the boy referrals going out yesterday was about enough to send me over the edge :)this is for sure a crazy roller coaster that I'm ready to GET OFF...What's your official wait time on wait list now?? praying for you, kristi
I keep hoping and hoping that you'll get the referral...
Hugs
Kate
Great post! These are often my same sentiments.
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